CINTA PERTAMA

CINTA PERTAMA

Girl baru sajer bekerja di tempat baru. Girl duduk dgn ibu jer. Ibu pensyarah kat sebuah uniersiti tempatan. Ayah kahwin dua dan jarang balik umah. Namun girl langsung tidak berdendam dgn ayah, kesan didikan dan kasih sayang yang tak penah tak cukup dr ibu. Walaupun girl tahu, Ayah tak penah bagi satu sen pun sepanjang girl belajar kat luar negeri, sedangkan Ayah support penuh adik tiri girl yg kini berada di Australia. Baru jerk masuk U, Ayah dah belikan adik tiri perempuan girl kereta. Ini membuatkan adik perempuan girl mcm dah spoiled.

Di tempat kerja baru, girl ader sorang bos yang hensem giler nak mampos, anak kacukan, tapi slalu jerk ke surau, hanya Allah yang tahu sedalam mana iman dier kan. Itu girl taknak komen pape. Tapi, this guy dah 3 kali putus tunang. Pada mulanya girl pelik gak dgn laki nih, yela kan..aper lagi aa dier nak..muda2 dah jadi bos, kaya lak tu, itu pun tak syukur lg ke? Sampai sesuka hati dier jerk nk putus2 tunang. Girl mmg rapat sgt dgn bos nih, especially time girl ke Hongkong, dier dgn senangnya mempercayai girl, menceritakan segala2nya tentang dirinya. Baru la girl tahu naper dier fobia sgt tentang perkahwinan. Mama bos tinggalkan dier dan ayah dier time dier masih kecik dlu. Bos girl nih takut isteri dier nanti macam tu jugak, taknak nasib yang sama menimpa anak2nya kelak.

Yang ibu nih pulak, tak abih2 suh girl kawin. Girl mmg tak penah ader boyfren, so girl bersetuju ajer biler ibu suh bertunang dgn colleague ibu. Girl mmg tak sampai hati nk hampakan hati ibu, bagi girl, yang penting ibu suka dgn bakal suami girl, walaupun girl tak senang dgn pertemuan pertama girl dgn lelaki pilihan ibu. Out of nowhere, girl lak asyik angau terigt2 bos girl tu. Padahal, girl sedar bos tak penah kasi aper2 harapan kat girl.

Tak lama selepas tu, girl dpt tahu isteri kedua ayah meninggal akibat barah rahim. Ibu bersetuju utk menjaga anak2 ayah. Itulah ibu, tak pernah bersungut, tak pernah busuk hati atau berdendam dgn sapa2 pun. Walaupun jauh di sudut hati girl, girl mmg iri hati dgn adik perempuan girl, dier mendapat kebebasan sepenuhnya dan sentiasa dpt aper yang dier nak, tapi girl tetap sayangkan dier. Yelah hidup sebagai anak tunggal menyebabkan girl rasa inginkan seorang adik, seorang kawan utk bercerita. Bkn girl katakan girl tak buleh nk bercerita dgn ibu, tapi, ntah lah…

Girl cuba lari dr memory bersama bos yang sering menghantui girl, menyedari girl adalah tunangan orang dan rasa bersalah kat tunang girl. Sehinggalah suatu hari, girl terserempak tunangan girl kantoi di dlm bilik adik perempuan girl. Adik girl yang mmg berdendam dgn girl sengaja plan gitu utk menyakitkan hati girl. Pada hari yang sama, girl dapat tahu yang ayah itu bkn ayah sbnr girl.

Girl tak dpt tahan lg kesedihan di hati, girl lari ke rumah kenalan bos, Ayah Mat, kebetulan girl mmg rapat dgn dier selepas bekerjasama dgnnya dlm satu projek di office. Mlm tu jugak, bos dtg memujuk girl langsung menyatakan keinginan utk memperisterikan girl. Bukan setakat itu sajer, bos ke umah berjumpa ibu menyatakan hasratnya. Girl rasa bagaikan pucuk dicita ulam mendatang.

Jauh di sudut hati, girl berterima kasih dgn adik girl kerana melalui dier, girl mendapat petunjuk ttg perangai tunangan girl. Mujurlah semuanya berlaku sblm girl bernikah dgnnya. Tapi, simpati pun ader kat adik girl, biler dier tak nak bertanggungjawab ke atas adik girl. Walaupun begitu, adik girl dah sedar skang dan memulakan satu hidup baru.

Girl pulak bertambah girang biler dapat tahu Ayah Mat adalah ayah sebenar girl. Ayah pergi membawa diri setelah dier terpaksa ceraikan ibu atas paksaan ibu Ayah. Ibu Ayah nak Ayah kahwin dgn sepupu Ayah kerana tak mahu hartanya jatuh ke tangan orang luar dr keluarganya. Ketika itu, girl baru saja dilahirkan. Ibu Ayah halau kami kuar dr umah tu, itulah sebabnya ibu berkahwin dgn Ayah skang, Ayah berniat baik, utk menyelamatkan kami anak beranak. Menyedari perkahwinannya bkn berdasarkan cinta, ibu rela ayah kawin lagi satu, even ibu yang pergi pinang isteri kedua ayah dlu.

Selepas berkahwin, girl dan suami gi honeymoon kat satu tempat nih. Suami ckp, dier dtg ke sini selepas frust sbb dpt tahu girl dah bertunang dgn orang lain. Ketika tu, dier dtg dan asyik termenung sambil menatap PDAnya. Aper yang ader dlm PDA dier tu? Rupa2nya gambar girl ketika kami ke Hongkong dlu atas urusan kerja.

Girl rasa sungguh gembira kerana girl dapat seorang suami yang sangat penyayang dan sgt schweett, tiap2 ari diucapkan kata sayang dan dirungkaikan kata rindu, biar pun tiap2 ari girl berada di depan matanya. Tangannya tak penah lepas dr pinggang girl. Paling girl tak suka biler suami suka menyatakan di hadapan ahli keluarga yang girl adalah kilang baby2 dier. Merah giler muka biler suami memberitahu ibu yang dier inginkan anak penuh satu padang bola. Girl selalu berdoa agar kami dipanjangkan jodoh dan keluarga kami sentiasa diberkati dan dipermudahkan rezeki. Girl paling lucu tgk suami gelabah membantu girl ketika girl baru beberapa bulan mengandungkan anak sulung kami. Katanya dier rasa bersalah tgk girl mabuk sumer. =)

How do I know that this is LOVE?

1) Do I treat him as a person or a thing?

2) Would I choose to spend the evening alone with him if there were no kissing and no touching?

3) Are both of us at ease and as happy alone as we are with friends?

4) Do we get along?

5) Am I still interested in dating or secretly "messing around" with others?

6) Can I be totally honest and open?

7) Am I realistic?

8) Is either of us much more of a taker than a giver?

9) Do I think of the partner as being a part of my whole life?

I'm all alone

I Am Much Too Alone in This World, Yet Not Alone
Rainer Maria Rilke

I am much too alone in this world, yet not alone
enough
to truly consecrate the hour.
I am much too small in this world, yet not small
enough
to be to you just object and thing,
dark and smart.
I want my free will and want it accompanying
the path which leads to action;
and want during times that beg questions,
where something is up,
to be among those in the know,
or else be alone.

I want to mirror your image to its fullest perfection,
never be blind or too old
to uphold your weighty wavering reflection.
I want to unfold.
Nowhere I wish to stay crooked, bent;
for there I would be dishonest, untrue.
I want my conscience to be
true before you;
want to describe myself like a picture I observed
for a long time, one close up,
like a new word I learned and embraced,
like the everday jug,
like my mother's face,
like a ship that carried me along
through the deadliest storm.

A Thousand Miles

Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever think of me

Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in
Your precious memory

Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by,oh
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles

Bowling oh Bowling

Bowling When Injured
10/30/2000 - By George Freeman
     Bowling is not considered a "contact sport," meaning players do not directly interact with one another physically like football players do. However, this does not mean that bowlers are not subject to injury as football players are. The constant bending; the strain on the tendon; and muscles in the knees, fingers, and arms can take their toll. You aren't likely to see a bowler break his or her leg on the lanes, but injuries while bowling can sideline players as easily as injuries on the football field can.

     The most important thing I can stress, especially for youth bowlers, is that if you injure yourself on the lanes, STOP BOWLING IMMEDIATELY. ABC, WIBC, and YABA all have rules in place in the event a bowler has to leave the game due to an injury during league play, so you will not be penalized for it. It is not worth bowling an extra five or six frames to finish out the game and risking aggravating an injury so that instead of it taking a couple days to heal, it could take a week, or two weeks, or even worse. It's just not worth it. Youth bowlers, because they are young, have still-developing muscles and bones, and thus sometimes are more susceptible to injury than adults. It is even more important that youth bowlers know when to stop for exactly that reason--they are young. They need their body to develop normally. Don't worry, the lanes will still be there when you recover. No one will call you a wimp or weak. It's not a contest to see who the most macho bowler is, so if someone does give you a hard time, remind them that it is YOUR body, not theirs.

     So, if you find yourself in a position where you shouldn't continue, don't. The frames you miss today might be the games you won't have to miss tomorrow.

http://www.bowlingfans.com/tips/george10302000.shtml

Stop bowling immediately? Last few days, I injured myself during the 3rd frame. But what did I do? I continued to play until 7 frames. Skang..aper dh jadi? Sakit abih satu badan..adehh..
But that's fine, memandangkan selama nih tak penah2 dpt lebih dr 100 kan...huhu...Illid poyo nyer tulih dlm blog nih..ala..aper nk heran kan..orang baca dpt 100 lebih tu..maybe that's nothing for u..tp..aku tak penah lebih 100 doo.....So..it means something for me..

Winter Break

In Cleveland throughout the Winter Break? Gosh! What a survivor! I have no choice besides membela lemak here in Cleveland. Is Cleveland so bad that I don't think I will be able to survive for the month? Not that bad. Whose statement is this: we don't need that much money if you want to be in Cleveland. Mcm tak cayer jerk..Paling2 teruk pun Tower City aa..bodoh2 tower city tu pun buleh abih byk gk..

ke..mmg kelemahan pompuan..takleh tgk bende lawa2 skit nk beli..or sbb aku mmg tgh buhsan kat sini..so..takdek keje...apalaga..berbelanja besar lah kan? Hmm..macamana nk disiplinkan diri utk simpan duit aa?

http://moneycentral.msn.com/content/CollegeandFamily/Cutcollegecosts/P41104.asp

http://www.support4learning.org.uk/money/money_manage.htm

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hehe..at last ader gk website sendiri..hehe..tenkiu to Fatin sbb tunjuk camner nk buat nih..tenkiu to Acap cos encourage me to do this website..huhu...Illid dah jd webbie..huhuh...
sajer nak testing jer nih