Well, a couple months ago, I was so depressed with the kerinduan yang berbuku in my heart. I even asked myself why in the world do we need rindu? As matter of fact, rindu is actually heartrending. I literally felt the pain in my heart for being so sad as I missed you so much. All day long, I was just thinking about you. The worst part was when I thought just to scream and to call your name out loud. Thinking that would just be wasting (I did scream, but I was the only one who could hear it), I thought it would be better if I just forget about you. NO! That’s impossible. I am deeply falling in love with you. I couldn’t even get your picture, your kindness and your attention to me out from my brain.
I was trying to find a way to channel out my rindu to other sources. I moved out from my parent’s house, thinking that if I have my nieces and my nephew to fill in my lonely time, then it would just soothe me a bit. It gets to my surprise that not a single thing would help me to get this rindu out from my heart, not even you Sayang. I was helpless, even if I sent you SMS saying that I MISS YOU, that wouldn’t actually ease me, not at all. Talking to you on the phone every single day? That would just worsen the kerinduan in my heart, though I love to hear your voice and to know what you had been up to that day. It’s good to hear that you are enjoying your final semester there, with your Baseball games, Basketball games and American Football games to fill out your days.
It came to a point where I was thinking about the days when I was in Cleveland, 8 hours, that’s all. That’s the longest period of time that I could stand not seeing or hearing from you. All I could think of once I got back to my room after attending classes was to pick up the phone and call my Sayang. It did not just stop there; the phone call would be followed by a date.
Surprisingly, I’ve successfully gone through this far. 52 days to go, from three digits to only two digits. Seriously, I can’t wait for it to become only one digit. After all my chot chet2, allow me to change my statement. Rindu is actually one of my favorite things, one sweet memorable thing. In reality, rindu will make your heart grows fonder and your love grows stronger. I definitely agree that rindu can only be considered the sweetest thing once we have successfully gone through his absence, then meet him again and being in love once again. I am holding tight to what Sayang said the other day, as long as we take good care of each other’s heart, then everything should be fine. Can’t wait to see you again.
