Undangan

Can't wait for this year to end

It's 2nd half of October now. I had a wonderful but sederhana Hari Rayer with my family back in my hometown. So sad Aisyah and the gang cannot join us this year. So glad that we had a sederhana celebration one, yet we met almost everyone in the bigger family, especially the elderly, got time to get some rest some more (that was the best part, rite kakak?). Now, I am back to work. Students are not here, they are having semester break aka study leave, before coming back to sit for the final exam starting Oct 29.
November is approaching, soon. Next month, I plan to take a 1-day leave, after the Deepavali. Maybe I will go back to my parent's house, not for leisure I suppose, instead we have a lot and a lot of things to do on the list daaa... By the time I'm back to KL, it's already mid November.
Then, comes the last month of the year in the Gregorian calendar. Kak Maznah will receive another pink form from me, I'll be applying for a 3-day leave this time (still got 11 days of leaves left, will carry forward then). I'll be flying back to my hometown to celebrate Rayer Haji. Will see a lembu tumbang this year. Hehe. Plus, I'll be attending my cousin's wedding.
I'll be back to work after Christmas. By that time, it's the last week of the year and we will be counting days to 2008, insyaAllah, kalau panjang umur.
All in all, when the year 2007 is ending, meaning I'm gearing up to get my thesis done.

At 6PM, I'm still at work

Hola, ppl might think what a ridiculous person I am. Working after 5:30 is not a wierd thing for most of us. And ppl might also think that, working at the government sector, selalu balik awal. Hmm... I tot so too. Now that I've tried it myself, I can no longer agree with that statement.

And one more think, it's Ramadhan. I should be home by now, preparing for break fast. Talking about Ramadhan, what a great Ramadhan I've had so far. This is my second time fasting in my home country after coming back from the States. Plus, Ayah has been so nice to accompany me for the last 2 weeks. I could just drive back at 6:40 and by the time I reach home, everything is already on the dining table. But now I'm back on my own. Gotta think of what to cook each night for breaking fast and sahr.

At 6PM, I am still at work, don't call me workaholic, please. My working hours: 8AM to 6PM Monday to Friday (goes up to 8PM if it's not bulan puasa), 12PM-4PM Saturday and Sunday. Okay, can't concentrate anymore, forgot what I was about to say. Gotta go back to my thesis. Thank god next week is the last week of class. Even though that would mean the students are about to have their semester break, for me it's time to put up the gear and write my thesis. Hopefully there will be less departmental work, so that I can finish up my thesis....mimpilahh....

The moment

What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me, would you agree?
Its almost that feeling that we've met before so tell me that you dont think Im crazy when I tell your love is here and now.

A Moment like this.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.
Some people search forever for that one special kiss.
I cant believe its happening to me.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

Everything changes, but beauty remains.
Something so tender I cant explain.
Well I may be dreaming but til I awake..Can we make the dream last forever?
And I'll cherish all the love we share for a moment like this.

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.
Some people search forever for that one special kiss.
I cant believe its happening to me.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

The speed of waiting love of all.
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall.
So let me tell you this.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this...

Some people search a lifetime for a moment like this.
Some people search forever for that one special kiss.
I cant believe its happening to me.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

everytime...

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause every time we touch, I feel this static.
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.

The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause every time we touch, I feel this static.
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.

I'M IN LOVE....AGAIN...

Ikut 'ere budok2 nih, mau tok abih kijo aku

Tok tahu nok start mano, tapi gak hati nih Tuhe jah tahu. Berrat sungguh budok2 nih. Segho supo nok gi sekeh2 jah demo tuh. Buke nok kator, tapi gak... Haiiihh..
Semester baghu start ke'. Ambo nih mace coordinator lah untuk lab budok2 first year nih. Nok jadi ko ceghito, ador lah duo oghe foreigner, ambo tokse ghoyat lah maghi manno budok2 nih. Tapi kalu demo nih caghi pasa lagi denge ambo, meme ambo nok naik atah mejo la esok tikko meeting jabatte. Buke takkat tu jah, ambo ake war-war lah budok duo ekor nih maghi daghi manor. Buke apor, biar jadi telade. Hok ambo nok geghe lagi tuh, bakpo la pok sepupu ambo suko sangat amek student middle east nih. Kakok ambo kator, ador student dior nih, satu semester tok mandi, pahtu dio pakai satu baju tu jah sepanje semester tu. Busuk do'oh nah. Busuk bangar kohong ladung ayah ambo pangge.
Department ambo nih pung satu, tok se goghak awal2 pasa foreign student nok maghi, lo nih baghu nok kele kabut nok translate gotu goni. Pok pok nih pung, kalu tok ready lg nok bukok unibarsiti ke demo luar, tok soh la lagi. Tahu doh, sumo nok unibarsiti kito nih terunggul di mato dunio. Tapi, buleh dok demo atase tu maghi tanyo dlu kami hok duk bawwoh nih, apo masaloh nya. Kalu maghi bilo nok translate sumo tuh, lecturer banyok lepah tange jah. Demo pakat kato demo banyok lagi khijo lain. Aduhh la, ambo tok tahu bilor ambo buleh abih masters ambo nih. Pok sepupu aku nih pung, mintak maghi duk kecek denge kami2 nih dlu, tanyo beto2.
Hok budok dua ekor nih pun satu, ambo mula tiko duk ngaji teppa' oghe mulo takdok pung demand nok lab sheet ko assignment ko suh translate gi bahaso melayu. Kalu demo gi France pung, ambo ghaso demo keno pahe jugok bahasa dennuh tu. Dok ke neh? Ke guano? Tunggu la pok2 nih, maghi lab aku minggu depe nih, abih la aku sekeh sekor2.. Demo nih gamak ko lagu manor, segho supo nok gi jah juppo nge demo nih, keghat tekok tu baghu tahu...
(Mind my language and also my slang)

You attract what you are

To attract attractive people, you must be attractive.
To attract powerful people, you must be powerful.
To attract committed people, you must be committed.
Instead of going to work on the, you go to work on yourself.
If you become, you attract.

So....WHO says that opposite attracts?? Hehe...

Outwit, Outplay, Outlast

Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be killed. Every morning a lion wakes up. It knows it must outrun the slowest gazelle or it will starve to death. It doesn't matter if you are a lion or a gazelle. When the sun comes up, you better be running.

Welcome Home Sayang

Did I tell you that he was scheduled to arrive at KLIA on the 31st? Sadly, it didn't happen as I expected. Told you to get back to Malaysia in 2006, or else, saya merajuk dgn awak. However, you are forgiven, since you tried to be here on the last day of 2006 and United Airways spoilt it. By the way, kalau Ayang smpi 31st pun, lagi saya susah hati, sebab time tu mcm ader jerawat yang sangat besar dekat pipi saya nih. Huwaaaaaaaaa....next day pun still merah lagi, tapi nasib baik sayang saya nih tak kisah. Hikhik..untung dapat orang yang macam awak nih...

Unfortunately, seeing you in KLIA for a couple hours did not heal my heart at all, I was so shy to talk to you in front of our family. Especially, with your adik-adik who like to menyakat so much. Sabar jer la...

So, when can I see you again?

End of December

What day is today? It's Monday the 25th. Uuuhh, it's Monday and I am in my pyjama, lingering around in the apartment, while everybody is in Cherating. So, what's with today? Nothing special, except that it's Christmas, and I don't have to go to work, of course, duhh. Lalala...
So, why in the first place did I bring this up? Nothing special about the fact that it is Christmas. It's just it is the 25th. Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, I'll go to work. Friday, will go see the movie with kakak. Saturday, maybe jalan-jalan with Chah and the gang. And..what's next? Sunday, Sayang will arrive at KLIA... From the time where he's about to check in until I see his face will be the moment of anxiety. I will not be able to sleep, will not be able to eat. The fact that I cannot call him, cannot sms him, will not be able to reach him during his flight makes my heart beats faster.
Looking way back months ago, where I would be so hopeless, counting days, 3 digits....that's too heartrending. Thank god, it is now single digit, the day that I've been waiting for so long.

ps:/ nanti balik...don't even think of saya gemuk ke aper tau...tgk muka jer...

The way you love me

Theres something bout the way you look tonight, Theres something bout the way that i can't take my eyes off you. Theres
something bout the way your lips invite, maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around. And I want you to be mine
and if u need a reason why,

[Chorus:]
It's in the way that you move me, and the way that you tease me, the way that I want you tonight,
It's in the way that you hold me, and the way that you know me, when I can't find the right words to say,
You feel it in the way, you feel it in the way.

Theres something bout how you stay on my mind, theres something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep Oh girl
no. Maybe its the look you get in your eyes. Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile. And the reasons they
may change but what i'm feeling stays the same.

[Chorus]

I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby.
So don't ask me to describe, I get all choked up inside, just thinking bout the way.

[Chorus]

There's something bout the way you look tonight.
There's nothing more to say then, I feel it in the way.

Menghitung hari

Last time, saya tulis ader 52 hari lagi saya kena tunggu.
This morning, when I was getting ready to go to work, suddenly I jumped happily. I was making calculation in my mind. Sayang, tinggal lagi 19 hari lagi kiter akan jumpa. 19 hari lagi, esok ader meeting, tinggal lg 18, jumaat kene bg progress report, tinggal lg 16, sabtu ader wedding, tinggal lg 15, ahad nak cari hadiah utk Sayang, tinggal lg 14.
Seminggu saya kene tulis journal lg. Jumaat igt nak mintak cuti, nak siap2 cari hadiah, cayer tak cayer time nih dah tinggal satu digit, 9 hari jer lagi. The next saturday n sunday ader wedding lg, then christmas. By this time, tinggal lg 6 hari. Believe it or not, ader less than 1 week. 4 hari seterusnya saya gi kerja. Tapi saya rasa, badan saya jer la gi kerja. Otak saya sure dah pikir pasal Sayang. Hehehe.
Biler la saya nak jumpa Sayang....

Anyone goin' to Florida?

This picture was taken at the entrance of Universal Studios. We took a bus from the hotel.

After the first 4-D show. It was Shrek's 4D show. Bessssstttt gilerrr!!!!

At the SeaWorld, attracted to the scenery there.

Presenting to you, Shamu. We were so sad to know that we could not dine in with Shamu that night, since it was fully booked until the next few months. But, we had a great time dining with the sharks.

Comelkan dolphin2 nih?

Jalan2 Chicago

We went to Chicago during the summer 2004. It was our first vacation together. We were so lucky to get a chance to drive a one week old Chrysler Sebring. The picture was taken after we visited the Shedd Aquarium that morning. Later in the evening, we went to have dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. The next day, we went to Sears Tower to see the sky view of Chicago. We had a wonderful time there, took so many pictures and spent so much money also. Heheh. Biler lg nk jalan2?

Absence does make love grow sronger

Well, a couple months ago, I was so depressed with the kerinduan yang berbuku in my heart. I even asked myself why in the world do we need rindu? As matter of fact, rindu is actually heartrending. I literally felt the pain in my heart for being so sad as I missed you so much. All day long, I was just thinking about you. The worst part was when I thought just to scream and to call your name out loud. Thinking that would just be wasting (I did scream, but I was the only one who could hear it), I thought it would be better if I just forget about you. NO! That’s impossible. I am deeply falling in love with you. I couldn’t even get your picture, your kindness and your attention to me out from my brain.
I was trying to find a way to channel out my rindu to other sources. I moved out from my parent’s house, thinking that if I have my nieces and my nephew to fill in my lonely time, then it would just soothe me a bit. It gets to my surprise that not a single thing would help me to get this rindu out from my heart, not even you Sayang. I was helpless, even if I sent you SMS saying that I MISS YOU, that wouldn’t actually ease me, not at all. Talking to you on the phone every single day? That would just worsen the kerinduan in my heart, though I love to hear your voice and to know what you had been up to that day. It’s good to hear that you are enjoying your final semester there, with your Baseball games, Basketball games and American Football games to fill out your days.
It came to a point where I was thinking about the days when I was in Cleveland, 8 hours, that’s all. That’s the longest period of time that I could stand not seeing or hearing from you. All I could think of once I got back to my room after attending classes was to pick up the phone and call my Sayang. It did not just stop there; the phone call would be followed by a date.
Surprisingly, I’ve successfully gone through this far. 52 days to go, from three digits to only two digits. Seriously, I can’t wait for it to become only one digit. After all my chot chet2, allow me to change my statement. Rindu is actually one of my favorite things, one sweet memorable thing. In reality, rindu will make your heart grows fonder and your love grows stronger. I definitely agree that rindu can only be considered the sweetest thing once we have successfully gone through his absence, then meet him again and being in love once again. I am holding tight to what Sayang said the other day, as long as we take good care of each other’s heart, then everything should be fine. Can’t wait to see you again.

RINDU

Biler tgk balik kat blog nih...cam dlu october 2005 last post. Hampir setahun jugakla baru nak tulis balik. Hehe... Agaknya betul kata certain2 org...blog ni ditulis biler kiter rasa sunyi n nak voice out..tp takde org nak diluahkan. Dlu time Ayang balik mesia waktu cuti Winter..tiap2 ari saya tulis blog, time tu sunyi. Biler Ayang balik ke US balik...langsung orang tak heran dgn blog nih. Skang, dah sambung balik la..since you are not around. Counting days la katakan, one hundred and sixteen days to go. Rindu la kat awak...talking about rindu, terigt SMS yang Ayang antar kat saya.

Saya : Naper tuhan ciptakan rindu? Sedangkan rindu itu tersangatlah sakitnyer. Rasa nak menjerit jer, tapi orang tahu itu tak dapat nak ubati rindu saya kat Sayang.
Sayang: Tuhan ciptakan rindu, kerna rindu itu lahir dari hati yang bersih. Tanpa rindu, kita akan keliru. Tanpa rindu, manakan cinta boleh bersatu. Kerna rindu itu pengukur setia dua insan menunggu.

MISS YOU SO MUCH, SAYANG...

I LOVE YOU

I love you
You know that I do
What can I do to find the truth
You know I love you
Forever and ever,
We'll be together
And I'll do it all
Just for you

From the first time I saw you u had my heart.
I didn't know how to talk to you I didn't know how to start.
2 weeks later I saw you again,
My heart was beating faster it was adrenalin.
Your eyes, your smile, and your beautiful face,
You caught me in the act
And I thought I lost the way.
Let me tell you that I'm shivering inside,
I wanna hold your hand,
I wanna hold u tight
Please stay with me, my love so deep, what can i do to be with you?

I love you
You know that I'll do
What can I do to find the truth.
You know I love you
Forever and ever,
We'll be together
And I'll do it all
Just for you

Sitting in the room, waiting by my phone.
Driving on the tour bus, can’t wait to come home
Miles and miles between the two of us.
I need you girl or my heart will bust.
I know it's hard for you when I'm far away.
But every single hour and every single day
I think of you in a special way.
I love you girl in my heart just stay

Please be with me, my love so deep, what can i do to be with you?
I love you
You know that I'll do
What can I do to find the truth.
You know I love you
Forever and ever,
We'll be together
And I'll do it all
Just for you

This goes out to all the lovers outside.
If you once find the right person never let her go away

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Wishing for the star

Wishing on a dream that seems far off
Hoping it will come today
Into the starlit night
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze
Waiting on a shooting star
But, what if the star is not to come
Will their dreams fade to nothing
When the horizon darkens most
We all need to believe there is hope
Is an angle watching closely over me
Can there be a guiding light I’ve yet to see
I know my heart should guide me but
There’s a hole within my soul
What will fill he emptiness inside of me
Am I to be satisfied without knowing
I wish then for a chance to see
Now all I need, desperately
Is my star to come